manuellaem

Anyone knows this girl? She's popular in Greece. She's been talking about her ed for years, but never seemed to want to get better, apart from lately. She's started sharing some of her journey, trying foods and stuff. The thing is that she's been SO triggering that I've genuinely cried over her content. Posting "trying food" videos and never trying anything. Posting bikini hauls. Posting her ED story in full detail, all of her weight fluctuations, exactly what she eats. And even now, in her "recovery" video she mentions her lw and even makes a point about how low calorie the ketchup she's eating is. She's not a recovery influencer or anything, and her audience is mostly non-disordered people, so I do understand that she doesn't have to be that careful about who she triggers. But very young girls watch her and idolise her and her body, and comment on it and she thanks them. Not to mention that she is pretty much the only big influencer in Greece talking about EDs, so that is the portrayal everyone sees here, about an illness that is already taboo enough. I think that deep down she knows what she's doing and she is looking for even more validation on how good of an anorexic she is. I really don't know what to think and I wanted to share, in case anyone else has seen her and feels the same. Knowing that everyone around me in this country expects me to be extremely underweight and surviving on air is making me feel so invalid and I wish there was more representation