Loud baby monitor keeping me up

Hi there!

Looking for your opinions bc I’m unsure. My guy sleeps through the night and I have the monitor screen next to me. I have it on loud enough to hear him obviously but half the time he’s just grunting and moving and not actually awake. His room/crib is down the hall from me so some what far? I dont know and I can’t leave his door open due to noisy animals.

Should I ditch the cam and monitor because it keeps me up and he generally sleeps through the night? I feel like that makes me a bad mom because I don’t necessarily want him to have to fully scream to get my attention.

I should add that he’s only 4.5 months old so I almost feel like I should just deal. But the 10p, 12:30a, 2a and like 3:30a movements are waking me up even though he’s asleep. I’m up now at 5a and he’s still out!

Thoughts??