Fellow virgin men, Is there anyway I can accept being a male virgin forever? Depression has been kicking my ass lately

I want to accept it, but I keep downloading dating apps and deleting them. I've had nothing but bad experiences with women and have never had a woman show genuine interest in me, I've never been that guy. I just don't want to think about being a virgin anymore and I want to own what I am and who I am. I don't necessarily want to be "happy" to still be a virgin at 28 and so on, but I want to be secure within it. I don't want kids or love/a relationship or marriage, I just want to exist and grow old in good health with my dog who is like my child.

How can I do it fellow virgin men?