I am ashamed of me being chronically online and how it altered my perception of everything

I was watching a video by fd signifier and it was a topic about the "leftist content creator infighting" and i realized how bullshit the term leftism is online. Not just the term leftism, but right wing, conservativsim, anti woke thing are so bullshit. They are all at the end of the day a content farm term. I have learned nothing and i have done nothing with the knowledge. Im wasting my time on the internet not doing anything. I hate that i faked myself so that i could be loved online. I hate being korean but part of myself feel like im faking it cause if i dont hate being korean then im uninteresting. Now everything is seen through skeptical lense and im exhausted. Im exhasted for just living.