Idk if I can continue my transition after watching some detransition videos

So basically I’ve watched a lot of detransition videos lately, and just how they found out they weren’t really trans. It wasn’t any misinformation just people supportive of the trans community figuring out it wasn’t right for them. And there was this one video where I really related to in a way that I didn’t really want to relate to because of what it might mean for me. It was like almost all the things I had questioned and to trans people in the comments it gave them peace of mind in there identity because they didn’t experience the things in the video so they must be trans. But for me after watching that video I felt terrible and all day I’ve been thinking about it. And I’ve just been angry and frustrated to the point of feeling sick. I’ve only started questioning about a year ago and I’m terrified of my masculine features progressing I would love the effects of estrogen and I so badly want to be a woman. But I feel stuck. My story seems to match a lot of detransitioners and that leaves me feeling unsettled and depressed. And this also affects me wanting to progress. Like if I have this much in common I might as well save my future self if in the future they find out it was a mistake. And it makes me hesitant to start estrogen too, just the things in common I have and the fact it’s only been a year. And I don’t want to wait to start estrogen if I knew my future self wouldn’t regret it