reddit blog 4 - Doing Well

Hello. Tom Simons here. jesus, it's almost been a year since the first reddit blog. times really flies, huh? 

i hope you guys have been well. 

it's been a pretty strange time for me on my end. i got diagnosed with depression a few weeks ago (HOORAY NOW I AM EVEN MORE RELATABLE TO MY AUDIENCE !!!!!!!) which honestly was very freeing, because i just spent three months thinking i was being stupid, so i'm glad to know it's a ✨medical issue✨.

since then it's been dead nice just like going on walks and being twenty and taking it a little easier. i think it's probably good to do more of that. have more fun, be a little less zoomed in.

my time has been spent sort of bouncing between making Music, Comedy and other Arty bits (like them square videos). i spent some time last year and this year reading some books on creativity and i think it's really paid off. i definitely feel like my creative development is going in some places i'm quite (very) excited by. 

ive been listening to so much music, i really love it. from Mac Miller's albums (especially circles, swimming & balloonerism) to Sam Fender's new one People Watching (which is fucking perfect) to old Bob Dylan (and the whole a complete unknown soundtrack), it's all been helping me lots. i recommend all of them a lot. i could do a whole post on albums that i love to bits.

I cannot fucking wait for tour. It's only... just under a month away now. God, a new city every day or two?! Seeing America, and Australia!! doing like actual live stand up and being able to prooooperly be myself on-stage, god I am buzzing. counting down the days man. it feels like summer holidays when you're so excited to go back to school and see all your mates and you just can't wait. What a fucking adventure it's going to be. 

ive also been thinking quite a lot about audience (YOU !!!!!) and stuff. 

we had some therapist's on the podcast (will be out soon, it was such a good episode) and they said something crazy to me like "well, we only know you from right now. to us you're a 20 year old adult" and that hung in my mind for days. Like, to me, there's this pre-notion of Kid Tom that i've got used to most people knowing. i've not really thought much about what i must look like lately to someone that didn't know Kid Tom. all my recent content (god i hate that word) has just sort of fell out of me in some way or another, i haven't had a plan at all, so to see the perspective of people who just see me for what I am now was quite mind blowing.

i also got donated this video before i went live (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0lnH3WPuEFM) which i found deeply moving. 

I don't know, it's crazy people take in what I am doing right now in such a significant way.

I stepped away fully from the internet and scrolling last year (for bloody good reason), but stumbling on this was a real blast of like... oh woah holy shit people properly and meaningfully think about what i'm doing. Like I guess I always sort of hoped and knew they might be and or are. And people tell me the odd story in person that really touches my soul. But seeing someone talk about me in the exact same way I talk about Bo Burnham or Bruce or Mac Miller.. man it just moved me so much. So motivating and energising and yeah... wow. I'm bloody fuckin' lucky aren't I? Thank you so much to PigCow for making that, it really meant a lot to me.

so yeah, that's been nice. and it's all been coming along very nicely. things are falling back to a nice place. and soon i will be travelling the world once again (WOW).

it was weird posting that 'not doing well' video though. i heard this quote from bruce springsteen last year "As long as you are honest with your audience, they will stick by" and I guess that really stuck with me. Probably too much. but hey it's good being vulnerable... I reckon.  

what else..

i recorded with markiplier yesterday! for his spotify power pash pals podcast. it was funny, we ended up getting quite deep very quick. made me emotional actually, the way he spoke really reminded me of techno. just like the intonation and dryness of how he delivered stuff. it was funny. Miss him lots these days.

yeah man so that's me. i hope you guys have been well. i look forward to meeting many of you on tour, and i hope you are excited for the show / book!

it's a scary time out there, but just know you're safe in r/tommyinnit (I think. That's not a promise at all. Or even really true).

thanks guys, bye bye for now.