Did I (16/f) 🍇 my boyfriend (16/m) of two years?

Sorry if this will sound weird, English isn’t my first language and idk how to describe it, and also I’ll just call it fun time bc idk if it will get taken down otherwise

So me (16/f) and my boyfriend(16/m) just had fun time but it was kinda weird and idk if I did something bad.

It all started with me being in the mood throughout the whole day. Then when we were watching a movie I tried to yk start something. I asked him if he wanted to do it and he said he wasn’t sure, which isn’t a yes, so I asked him yes or no and he said I don’t think I want to rn. That was fine with me even though I joked a little about being sexually frustrated, which we both take with humor bc I’m in the mood more often. Then later he started touching me like down there and I asked him if he now wanted it but he didn’t really respond. I then asked him if he could cuddle with me and told him that now I’m in the mood again (this happened after about idk 10 mins after he said no). Then after he like rubbed himself on my back (yk what I mean) and I like did the same but with my back, I hope you understand what I mean, I asked him if he wanted to get naked. He said yea why not so we did. We then did the spoon position and I put some lubricant on him, which he saw, and just did my thing. When he was inside, he asked if he was inside and I answered with yes. Then he said that it would be too big of a risk because we didn’t have a condom (I’m on birth control) and I told him that it’s not a problem. After that I asked him if we could change the position and he hesitated but then said yes. I’ll spare you the details but I came and he didn’t. He said it was on purpose but then told me that he thinks that he couldn’t cum today, which happens sometimes. After the fun time he looked really upset and I asked him if everything was alright and he said yea. I wasn’t really satisfied with his response because he looked like he felt really bad so I asked him again if he feels gross, if everything is okay and so on. He told me that he felt a bit gross but that everything was alright and I didn’t have to ask, so I asked him if he could promise and he couldn’t. I asked him what was wrong or why he felt that way but he just answered with everything is alright. I started crying because I felt so bad and he just asked me to come cuddle and that everything was alright (I hate this answer) so I accepted it. A few minutes later his dad picked him up and he didn’t kiss me on the lips.

Did I 🍇 him? Or did I do something wrong? Because I feel like I did something wrong but he just won’t tell me if I did, and normally we’re really honest about things we didn’t like or were bad. I need opinions and help on what I should do now because he just won’t answer me properly. Sorry if this text sounded weird or had tmi

I just don’t know because he gave me mixed signals but then didn’t say anything against it. I also told him that he has to say stop if he doesn’t want it because I can’t read his mind and I can only know the things that he tells me