Slight rant lol

I am genuinely, like, the least 15-year-old 15-year-old you'll ever meet. And it's AWESOME.

(Least child-like child in a way, too. When I was much younger)

Let's start with my interests, shall we? Here's a list of all of my biggest interests throughout my life so far:

My biggest interests right now are music, music theory, philosophy, classical literature, art, poetry, creative writing, psychology, and history. In the past, my interests have included all of the things that I've just mentioned, but also quite a lot more.

I'll try to be all-inclusive here: sociology, linguistics, theoretical astrophysics, just plain astronomy, game theory, chess, spirituality, anthropology, journalism, photography, chemistry, biology, mathmatics, politics, etc.

Name any field of study, and I can guarantee you, I've had some kind of interest in it at some point. I might even have some done some research into it at some point, too.

On a similar note... I am a FIEND for knowledge. I consume that stuff like it's crack-cocaine!!! (Only much more abstract.) Knowledge is everything to me, because it helps me further my philosophical and scientific understanding of the world and universe!!! Segway time!!!

Since I was a youngin' in the most pre- of schools, I have been on an eternal quest to become MASTER OOGWAY! :D No, really though. My ideal view of myself has always been some variation of the following: A master of myself, my own emotions, and the art of expressing them. Someone who can merely observe a happening and gain a world of insight into it. And someone who doesn't become obsessed in their day-to-day experience but rather experiences, observes, appreciates, and enjoys it. And especially this: Someone who learns and grows from everything. Someone who is endlessly improving themselves, not for the sake of perfection, but for the sake of the growth itself. Always working towards the very best version of oneself, and working to achieve wisdom, maturity, knowledge, and just understanding in general. NOT VERY PRESCHOOL-LIKE! NOT VERY TEENAGER-LIKE! Love it tho!

This could be summarized pretty accurately by saying that I want to be a weird combination of Master Oogway, Frederich Chopin, and Sadhguru or some Buddhist monk guy like Confuscious or something. Give or take a sage/scholar. As if the three(four) of them had a deadly threesome-orgy and produced some abbarent abomination of a love child. That's me! Or at least, that's who I'm becoming (mwahahahaha) :).

But, really, I've always been super curious. In frickin third grade, I was asking my poor ELA teacher questions about neuroscience and things that even scientists didn't have complete answers for at the time. But MANN did I want to know. I asked these things nonstop. I still ask a lot of questions, actually. But I realize now that the most common answer I'll get is "We won't be covering that this unit", or something along those lines. So I've taken it into my own hands to learn!

I've had a whole frickin lot of hardship in my life, too. But, weirdly enough, I'm happy about it! They've shaped me so deeply, and my sense of profoundity and depth could only be achieved through it. I see, feel, and experience everything on so much of a deeper level! I love it! One of my newer friends actually put it, very, very well. "It doesn't crush you, it molds you". Very accurate!

But, yeah. Does any of this sound like something you'd hear from a 15 year old? Maybe. Maybe not. Who am I to say? All that I do know is that I'm proud of who I am, however unusual it may be!