I’m normally quite good at reading my own cards but this has really confused me

Today a bunch of random synchronicities happened that caused me to think a lot about a past lover who I had a very deep and spiritual connection with, but who was ultimately quite toxic for me. It didn’t end gently and there’s been no contact since. I was asking ‘what is going on that causing me to think of him’ when I pulled the moon. Then I asked - what is the truth of the situation - lovers And what is the illusion - the sun Ten of pents being the shadow card. I am definitely very energetically connected to this person and I have always had a bit of a blind spot when it comes to them, so it makes sense that I really can’t understand what this means.

Today a bunch of random synchronicities happened that caused me to think a lot about a past lover who I had a very deep and spiritual connection with, but who was ultimately quite toxic for me. It didn’t end gently and there’s been no contact since. I was asking ‘what is going on that causing me to think of him’ when I pulled the moon. Then I asked - what is the truth of the situation - lovers And what is the illusion - the sun Ten of pents being the shadow card. I am definitely very energetically connected to this person and I have always had a bit of a blind spot when it comes to them, so it makes sense that I really can’t understand what this means.