SB seeking to be a Trophy Wife?

Long time lurker for a number of reasons, but I was wondering more so what would be the best way to go about the title. I've been out of the lifestyle for a number of years due to a very abusive and traumatizing relationship (originally a sugar relationship) that I am, in a sense, better from after lots of therapy and the like and wanting to get back into the life. My thing is, is I feel I'm getting older, 25, and that I would like to settle down and make my provider my life partner. I'm more so unsure of where to go or what to use for that as posting that on Seeking or even MM, I just get bombarded with hookup and live in maid messages. I'm fairly attractive, I think and have been told and have a number of skill sets. I just more so would like to have a fixed arrangement that involves possibly being in love or loving someone.

Edit to add; No, I do not want to be like "Melania Trump". Not to be political but they're relationship honestly seems like a findomme/finsub relationship. I feel old myself as I've been through things my entire life. I am not saying older SBs or the like are less of because of their age or whatever. My personal opinion on myself and wanting to settle down with a provider is exactly that- my opinion.