my husband gave up on us.

I am still sober (24 days now) and we have been working on our marriage, and things were going very well (so I thought). We have been married for 4 years in 2 weeks. He told me yesterday that he wants to divorce me still, and he cannot convince himself that I am capable of being sober long term or being okay with me. We have been through a lot of things with mental health, and my rock bottom was 2 years ago/1 year ago when I went to rehab(2x). I haven’t stopped trying to be sober and working through my mental health issues. I have a therapist that cares now, I am more confident in my sobriety, and I am stronger than I ever was. I have taken accountability for all of my actions, I have put my ego aside, made a lot of sacrifices for our marriage and for my mental health. I have made a lot of mistakes and I have realized that being sober is what is best for me. I love him very much and I can’t hate him. I don’t have anything bad to say about him. I’m losing my best friend and my husband. I don’t even have a desire to drink right now, and I just feel broken.

Just yesterday, he said he wanted to work this out with me, that he would be with me no matter what as long as I allow him to be as my husband, not even 2 minutes later when I was processing this information was when he read me a letter he typed titled ‘goodbye’. I am not gonna type the whole letter out, but it was painful and really hard to listen to. I tried to reason with him but he said to me that he wouldn’t let me talk him out of divorce again, even though he realized that he wants to be with me anyways. I just need comfort and I guess support. I don’t want to lose him but I think it’s too late. IWDWYT.