Genuinely fuck college

I hate that I’m not having a good time here even though it’s the easiest time to have sex and get into relationships.

I should be losing my innocence and having experiences… if I wait until I’m out of college I feel like it’d be too late and it’s significantly harder to meet people. I can’t handle it anymore.

Even when I go out I get made fun of, I don’t feel respected and even though I have some friends they all have girlfriends now and I just… wish I could be apart of normal society. I don’t want to be an outcast, I don’t want to be one of those guys on the outside being all bitter because he wasn’t let in. Or one of those people who’s like “oh yeah college, who cares about that?” Like NO, I DO, I want to be integrated accepted and praised by normal society.

I can’t do this anymore I’m going fucking insane college was meant to be my liberation but I realized in senior year of high school how short I was and was bullied mercilessly that was 3 years ago and it’s ruined my will to live.

It’s not my environment it’s just me. And how do you outrun the problem if the problem is you?