My older colleague (M47) wants to impregnate me

I have a long, confessional post ahead, so proceed only if you enjoy reading.

I’ve always had a breeding fetish. From the moment I began having sex — and I’ve had a lot of it — I’ve refused to let the man pull out.

My own orgasm is not the most interesting part to me. What gives me true fulfillment is the precise moment when all indications — his moans, the pace of his thrusting, how firmly he is holding my hips or even pulling my hair — are that he is about to cum.

The anticipation of receiving his load, followed by the feeling of hot cum shooting out of a cock that is still thrusting deep and hard inside of my tight little pussy — it’s my favourite feeling in the world. And I love when, as he comes down from his orgasm, he holds me tenderly and continues to thrust in me ever so gently, pushing his cum deeper and deeper, up to my cervix. I shiver thinking about it.

When he eventually pulls out and I feel his creampie leaking out between my thighs, sometimes trickling down my legs, I’m always a little sad to know it’s gone to waste — but I do also love being covered in cum. The point is, when a man cums in me, I truly feel complete, like I have served my most important purpose.

At first I believed I simply loved creampies. But now I know it’s so much more than that. I don’t want to be a mother in theory. But above and beyond my rational desires, I want to be impregnated. I want a man to get me in trouble, knock me up, fuck a baby into me. I want my body to reflect the potency of his seed. I am very slim and petite, and look extremely young for my age (37F) — 5’1, 90 lbs. I want my small round breasts to swell and my belly to grow. Thinking about myself pregnant, and the man responsible for my pregnancy continuing to cum in my pussy every day, makes me instantly wet. I want us to go out together and for him to hold me on his arm, showing off his heavily pregnant trophy.

Anyway…I just started having an affair with my older colleague. We’ve desired each other for years but only acted on it recently. Out of the blue, he surprised me by telling me something no man has ever told me before:

“I want to impregnate you.”

I should add that my colleague is very different from the usual type of man I go for. He is 6’1, well-built, and quite possibly the most masculine man I have ever encountered. (I speak truthfully — he is Mediterranean and a dead ringer for Javier Bardem, enough to be routinely mistaken for the actor, but with glasses and a touch more grey in his hair and beard.) He unintentionally intimidates and emasculates other men with his powerful presence. I’ve always admired that about him. So, imagine hearing those words from him.

Yesterday, we met in a hotel and had sex for the first time. The instant he entered the room, he effortlessly picked me up with my legs around his waist, set us both down on the bed, and we began kissing frantically as his hands wandered up my top and I ground my pussy against his erection.

Even though we tried to go slow, years of pent-up sexual frustration meant that we were soon fully naked and I was deep-throating his thick cock as he fingered my wet pussy.

I’m not on any protection at the moment, and he’d done the responsible thing and brought condoms. I can’t say how much willpower it took for him to slide on a condom before he began fucking me. I wanted so badly to grab his cock and take it off him so he could enter me raw.

He was very dominant. Through a combination of slow, excruciatingly deep thrusts that built up to rapid, rhythmic, hard thrusts as he choked me, he made me cum all over his cock. My pussy muscles clenched on it so hard as I orgasmed loudly, and I kept thinking what a shame it was that he couldn’t feel my contractions because of the damned condom.

When it was his turn to cum, he kissed me passionately as I lay in his arms, and took off the condom. He whispered to me once more:

“I seriously want to get you pregnant.”

I begged him to impregnate me there and then. I almost wanted to cry out of desperation. He jerked himself for barely two seconds before thick, opaque ropes of cum began shooting out of his cock. I’ve been with men who cum a lot (my favourite!), but this was honestly next level.

I literally leapt forward and placed my tongue under the head of his cock so that he was cumming directly into my mouth. I could feel his cock twitching on my tongue as he moaned “baby, baby”.

Not wanting to waste a single drop, I swallowed all of his cum and then licked up the rest that had landed on his stomach. And then I ran my tongue over my lips to clean myself off and show him what a good girl I was.

He fucked me one more time and came inside me — but with a second condom on. :(

Yet I know that his will is weak, and his drive to impregnate me against all logic and consequences is strong. My goal this week is to tease him into fucking and cumming in me raw and making me the mother of his child.