Maggie is about to go

I'm completely heartbroken. My 16.5-year-old Maggie has had heart disease for the last five years but has lived a full, happy life. We joked that she’s almost like a puppy. Loves the sun, eating chicken, getting cuddles and being held like a baby.

On Monday, she started declining and vomiting, and her condition worsened as the days passed. Today, she was diagnosed with complete kidney failure. She’s drinking little to no water, not eating, not walking, and can barely stand on her own.

I can’t believe she’s about to go. I can’t bring myself to make a decision. She saw me finish kindergarten, complete primary school, complete high school, graduate college, move into my apartment, and even get engaged. I don’t know a life without her. She’s been my constant support, and I feel I can’t let go.

I’m trying to focus on the fact that she won’t get any better and that this is no life for her. But still, the pain is unbearable. Any advice or kind words would be appreciated.