Bro why am I like this

Holy hell I feel so desperate sometimes. Like just burning desperate for some semblance of affection and sex. What the hell am I supposed to do about it?

Like, I'll deal with the base urges myself sometimes and it'll last like, at best an hour or two, and it barely helps with the desire to just cuddle and have my body curled up in some guys lap (if there's a crush happening, it's his lap) and it really doesn't improve.

Literally every night I just fall asleep with my arms around my pillow and try to pretend it's some cute boy.

It's fucking pathetic but it doesn't really end.