Scorpio moons testing people

I'm sure other scorpio moons feel the same way I do. I feel i'm always testing people and see how much i can trust them. I can sound hard when i judge people but i swear i don't do it in a bad way, i see people how they really are but I don't like feeling hate or staying with resentment for so long, it makes me feel dead inside.

I feel so misunderstood and overwhelmed, there are days I feel my head is gonna explode with all of the scenarios I create in my mind lol paranoia drives me insane. I swear I try to see the good on everyone but it's hard. I always feel hated and abandoned, no matter what I do or say or how much appreciation people show towards me.