hey can anyone recommend a good trans positive therapist that I can feel comfortable?

thanks guys. im really not doing well I've never felt so bad in my life. I live in short pump but don't have an issue driving. I've never actually had therapy before and I'm a little nervous there's no actual help I can get if I need to be afraid I'm gonna get admitted for saying I feel suicidal. I'm just gonna lie I feel so stuck I'm losing my 2 most important people (well 1 is a cat) and everything in our apartment I'm so scared of being alone and I need someone to talk to I'm still not even out. hrt has obliterated my ability to block my emotions I've never felt so helpless

quick edit: fml I forgot to finish the title now I look stupid