26F struggling in marriage after a long distance relationship with 31M

Hey fellow Redditors,

I’m 26F and my husband is 31M . As I sit down to write this, my heart feels like it's shattering into pieces, and I could really use some guidance and suggestions right now. Last year, I took the plunge into marriage after being in a beautiful 5-year relationship with my now-husband. The catch? He moved to a different country, and we decided to continue our love story across the miles.

For months, I stayed true and loyal, battling tears and loneliness, eagerly waiting for the day I'd finally be in the same country as him. When that day finally arrived, it was amazing, but recently, things have taken an unexpected turn. His behavior has changed, and he's been saying unsettling things like "ending the relationship" even in the smallest of arguments. It's left me feeling utterly worthless and questioning why this sudden shift has occurred.

Then came the shocker—I discovered he was cheating on me. This revelation shattered me because I had always believed in his loyalty, just as I had remained faithful to him. Despite the pain, he begged for a second chance, offering transparency by giving me access to his social media accounts. I chose to give him that chance, partly because I'm in a foreign country with no family or friends, and leaving him would leave me completely isolated.

But here's where I'm at now: I'm grappling with trauma, and he's started suggesting that my depression means I'll never be okay and that I should leave. I'm caught between my love for him and the hurt he's caused. I'm reaching out to you, Reddit community, for some advice. What would you do in my shoes? How can I navigate this complex situation and find a way to heal, whether with or without him?

Thank you for taking the time to read this and for any insights you can share. 🙏