Having kids is such a waste of your life

Every day I regret having kids. It's fucking miserable, and I hate it. They scream and fight and hit and talk constantly, no matter what I try/do. I think every day of what I could have done if they didn't exist. Every night I pray I won't wake up in the morning. And yes, I'm on the highest dose of antidepressants. I just want to wake up from this fucking nightmare.