21 hours in. Oh boy

I got this I got this I got this. I’ve been lying to myself and creating delusions to help me thru. I’ve always struggled with anxiety but I’m changing my identity to someone that has never struggled with it. I’ve seen a lot of success stories so far so I know it’s possible. But I’m lying to myself saying I have to be the first one to make it thru this to show you all the way. (When it’s not about you. The hard shit doesn’t matter anymore.) very sharp spike pains in my arms legs and back. Restless legs. Chocking on my sneezes. Random hyperventilation. Restless legs seem to be the biggest symptom. Terrible digestive issues currently. Chills. Hot flashes. I GOT THIS I GOT THIS I GOT THIS. I committed on here I was quiting 3/17. I did so. If I don’t buy it I won’t take it. IF I PERSIST I WILL SUCCEED. IF I PERSIST I WILL WIN. I want this. I need this. I will see you guys on the other side. Anyone in a similar position right now please message me so we can hold each other accountable thru this first week. Love you all!