This disorder is so embarrassing

Obligatory "I don't mean to suggest that you should be ashamed of yourself if you have PTSD," I was just feeling embarrassed about some of the symptoms and wanted to post about it here.

I'm embarrassed that I can't fall asleep without holding a comfort blanket.

I'm embarrassed that I'll shout in my sleep and wake other people up when I'm having weird dreams.

I'm embarrassed without how much my hands shake (enough that other people have commented on it).

I'm embarrassed with how tired and jumpy I am all the time.

I'm embarrassed every time I flinch/jump/cry in public.

I'm embarrassed every time people talk about the thing that happened to me and I ask them to stop, and doubly so every time they tell me to get over it and that I'm being dramatic.

I'm embarrassed with how I can't remember anything except this one specific thing.

I'm embarrassed that the same thing happened to tons of other people I know and they didn't get PTSD but somehow I did.

I'm embarrassed to say the name of the diagnosis and people look at me and say "You're a teenaged girl, you're too young for it."

I'm embarrassed that I need to ask for so much help and I'm still not fully better.