Please no judgment…Xanax

Hi. Let me first start by saying that since the age of 10 I have been having panic attacks and I’m now 44. I have been on every SSRI medication and currently on Prozac. I made the grave mistake of stopping it for almost a year because I was happy and felt good. I had Xanax as needed for panic attacks. I am going through horrific anxiety and panic attacks from morning until night. My doctor has prescribed me one milligram Xanax up to three times a day. About a year ago I needed it maybe once a day. For the past 6+ months. I have needed it three times a day. Everything I read online scares the hell out of me, but this is the only thing that works. Has anybody been on this long-term and successful? I don’t need to hear the scary stories or the addiction issues. I’m living in the here and now and my life is unbearable. I am currently going through a gene therapy test to see which medication’s will match best with my chemical make up. My doctor tried me on Valium yesterday, and I thought I was dying. The anxiety and panic was horrific. He also prescribed trazodone to take at night as I am not sleeping well.

I am still feeling the grogginess of last night and have had crazy anxiety all day. Have stopped those two medication’s and have gone back to Xanax and waiting to hear back from my doctor. Please and I beg you please only encouraging information or stories.