Lost 1.1M

Betting every second of every day. I would bet while driving. 33 years old, i had 1.5M saved up, i could just stop and live life forever carefree. But i kept going, started losing, losing, losing. Down to 300k. The website gave me an 89k bonus, and i ran that up to 500k, my total saved to 800.

Problem now, is i think about the 1.5M i had EVERY SECOND OF EVERY DAY, thinking how good it was back then. I know if i try to win, ill probably lose the 800 i have now…

I want to stop so badly, but its really fucking hard..