I am miserable

I am 8 weeks today, 24 and first pregnancy, and I seriously feel like I am dying. I work a full time job, and I haven’t been able to work a full day in weeks. Since about 5 weeks I have been just so completely miserable and overwhelmed with nausea and vomiting. I had my first virtual appointment this morning and it was honestly really frustrating. She asked me all the questions and talked about restrictions and limitations, but when I brought my concerns about the nausea she basically said to just keep doing what I was doing and that there’s really nothing they can do to help it. I have been taking 50mg of B6 4x a day, taking the ginger capsules, using the sea bands, and eating little meals as often as I can. My 1st in-person visit with the midwife is on June the 19th and that just doesn’t make sense to me. I have NO relief, other than a couple minutes after vomiting, and then the nausea just comes right back. I also CANNOT sleep! I have been tossing and turning going from couch to bed all night and there’s just no good sleep.

I’m finding it really hard to be excited about this baby and pregnancy while I feel like my body is trying to kill me. I really just need some advice. Does anyone have any suggestions for what to do about this constant sickness? Or the insomnia? I’ve been told that once you get to the 2nd trimester it gets a little better, but I also have friends and family who claim they were sick from the moment of conception to the day they gave birth. I feel like a wimp and weak. I just wish this was as magical and beautiful as I was hoping it would be. I feel bad talking to my friends because all I do is complain about being sick. I feel extra bad for my parter because he is going out of his way to make sure I am fed and comfortable, but the last thing I want right now is to be touched or even comforted. I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. All day everyday. Sorry for the rant, thank you for taking the time to read and respond.