Needing some encouragement

I've been clean from porn for a few months, but recently I've been doing more peeking and just getting a ton of urges to look.

I keep telling myself if I just go back for one session then the urges will go away, even though I know that's a lie.

I just had a wonderful day with my fiance today but as soon as she went home it just hit like a truck. I feel like I've been getting hit almost constantly the past few weeks, and trying to cope with no-porn masturbation only led to me becoming more reliant on it. I've also tried practicing mindful masturbation, which has been helpful at lowering the number of times I jerk it per week, but I still want to look at porn and it infuriates me. It just feels like it's been consistently getting worse since I started. Maybe I'm just getting tired. I don't know.

I just need other people to tell me what I already know. That porn isn't worth it, and that there are people rooting for me to beat this.