Wtf

My birthday is soon and I’m in ridiculous emotional pain and suffering. It feels like a turning point but what really has the spotlight is my relationships. How much I feel unloved, unheard, shunned, ridiculed, and minimized. I beg you god for all of this shit to stop. I’ve entertained everyone for far too long and I’m dealing with the consequences. I can’t and don’t want to do it anymore. Why can’t people just put a little more effort. I’m always considered too much for them and it honestly hurts. What do I do?