I think I might have contracted HIV

On January 3rd, I had a really high-risk exposure. I was on PrEP at the time and have stayed on it daily since then, but the anxiety hasn’t left me. I stopped having sex completely not because I wanted to, but because I couldn’t handle the fear.

I’ve been testing obsessively, trying to reassure myself:

• Jan 30 – 3rd Gen Rapid Test: Negative
  
• Jan 31 – 4th Gen Lab Test: Negative
  
• Feb 1 – 3rd Gen Rapid Test: Negative
  
• Feb 2 – 3rd Gen Rapid Test: Negative
  
• Feb 3 – 4th Gen Lab Test: Negative
  
• Feb 4 – 3rd Gen Rapid Test: Negative
  
• Feb 10 – 4th Gen Lab + 3rd Gen Rapid Test: Negative
  
• Feb 16 – 4th Gen Lab Test: Negative
  
• Feb 26 – 4th Gen Rapid Test: Negative
  
• Mar 3 – 4th Gen Lab Test: Negative
  

At first, I trusted the results. But then I started reading about rare cases stories about PrEP potentially suppressing HIV and delaying detection. That got into my head, and now I can’t stop worrying.

And then came the symptoms. Flu, cough, runny nose, fatigue, sore throat all things I could easily brush off if I weren’t already in a spiral. But with everything I’ve read, my mind keeps jumping to the worst-case scenario.

I don’t know what I’m looking for anymore reassurance? Validation that I’m not alone in this anxiety? Has anyone else been stuck in this cycle of fear despite constant negative tests?

Update : As of march 11** - 4th Gen Lab Test : * Negative *