Me and my boyfriend kissed for the first time

We are both 22. We’ve been dating for 4 months or so - he’s very shy and always asks permission to hold my hand or play with my hair, hugging me - stuff like that. It took a while to reach this stage since we both are each others’ first and have no idea how this works but are figuring out things slowly and steadily. And we both had agreed that we’d take things one at a time in terms of physical intimacy, gradually pushing up the level.

So today I came back to his house after work - he had made dinner and was watching Television. He immediately ran over to get my coat and then served me dinner. Then we got cozy undercovers, while watching a movie.

After it finished, I sat on his lap, facing him. And then I kissed him on the cheek, he did the same and then his heartbeats fastened and he started having somewhat laboured breaths. When this happens, he usually is mentally preparing himself to ask permission for things mentioned above - which makes me warm and excited - even though I’ve assured him multiple times that I’m okay with whatever he wants to do because I trust him and he wouldn’t hurt me. But he still asks regardless since he doesn’t want me to be uncomfortable - which is really sweet of him.

I smiled because I love it when he gets all nervous and shy. “You want another kiss?”, I asked. “…” “Hey. You okay?”

And while stuttering and stammering, he asked - “May I kiss you on the lips?”

I lost it completely - how adorably cute this guy is. And he couldn’t look at me since he was so nervous and was already saying things like I don’t have to, and that he’s sorry if he’s made me uncomfortable and I just kissed his forehead. He calmed down, and then I pulled away and then leaned in and… we kissed.

It was amazing. We kissed for a long time and fell asleep on the sofa itself. My heart is so full right now and he can’t stop shaking his legs when he’s sitting with me and breaks into a cute smile every now and again while being as red as a tomato.

Oh I’m so happy