I'm choosing not to love.

I'm a Christian male (16), and obviously, my homosexuality is a sin. I never understood why God decided to make me this way and yet to also condemn it at the same time. I know God makes no mistakes, and so I don't understand why he would deliberately make me this way. I've decided that if I'm not allowed to love who I want, I'm not going to love anyone at all. I hope that way, my soul can still be saved from 'eternal torment'. All I want is to be a good Christian and be saved, but I can't stop feeling this bit of resentment for what he made me.