My 23 year old daughter does't want to visit me
I've done everything I could possibly do as a dad, including paying over $50k of her student loans. She's done so well and landed a great job upon graduation and now she's able to pay her own rent and sustain herself financially. Ever since she was a baby, I've been there supporting her, taking her to her friends for sleepovers, extra circulars, and all.
My ex and I have been divorced for about two and half years. I decided to cut her off from my life a couple of months ago due to same reasons why we're divorced. My daughter is in town and she was supposed to come to my place on Christmas day but, she sent me a text saying she wasn't feeling well and asked if it was okay to come today. I wish her well and said of course. However, she sent another message today and I have no idea on how to help a 23 year old on what she's asking me to do in order to meet her where she's at. I grow up in a developing country, came to the States when I was 23, my mom was an alcoholic and past away when I was in 11th grade, my dad wasn't there, I just heard he past away around the same time as well. My sister older sent me to boarding school for high school.
I don't know how to provide emotional support the way she would like me to because I never had it from childhood. don't even know how I should respond to has last text. Any thoughts that you provide would be really helpful. Here's the exchange we had today via text for context:
"Hey daddy, I’m not feeling too good today. Is it okay if I come by tomorrow
?: Me: Yes! I hope you feel better!
: Daughter: Thank you
Hey daddy, I’ve been talking to my therapist about a lot of things and it’s been taking a toll on me. I won’t lie, it’s been kind of hard for me to see and talk to you lately and I’ll need some time to sort through my feelings. I’m trying to bring myself to come to you but it’s been very difficult. I’m going to need a little time :
Me: Am I doing something wrong that I may not be aware of?
Daughter: I’ve just tried to address a lot of things from growing up but you seem to not remember. So I’m just trying to accept that
Me: Maybe providing examples would jog my memory. I was never loved when I was growing up so this is the best I can offer. I have nothing left but the best that I can provide from what I know and what love is. The best thin I thought I did was to have both off you with same parents which I never had and a home with a functional family. Including grand parents and supportive Aunts and Uncles. I had non of all those things. I was only a kid when I got here with no education, I had no therapists when I was growing up, didn’t even know they existed. I hope therapy helps. I am here for any support as always if you need me.
Daughter: I understand where you’re coming from but it’s gonna take hard personal work with your own therapist to be able to meet me where I’m at and understand what I’m trying to express to you at times. I appreciate everything you’ve done, but I’ve needed emotional support and guidance from you. I’m not sure if you know how to provide that and that’s what I want you to work on"