I AM SO REGRETFUL

I DON'T CARE I DON'T CARE I hate being in my school like I really WASTED my school and teenage life staying here Genuinely nothing good or fun has happened and i'll never get to have a crazy teenage life because my parents put me in this stupid catholic school. I'M ALREADY FUCKING GRADUATING THIS YEAR and I'll never experience teenage love and being normal because im at a stupid same gender private school. Why were my parents so lazy and didn't let me pursue sports OR PUSH ME TO DO SPORTS when i was still young. They let me go for one month during the summer WHEN I WAS NINE because i cried so hard AND THAT WAS IT but now that i'm conscious enough to really force them to make me do sports, its so hard to see younger people excelling more than me because I started way too late. I never wanna stay home but my country is so boring that i've seen everything. I have alot of friends but they're all sheltered and bore me now Oh my god. I know i'm privileged and i appreciate it sometimes but i always wonder what its like to live as a regular person. When my mom and dad tell me about their school life, it pisses me off so bad because i wanted to live like that so bad when i was young and now its all over and i'll never get to experience it. I wanna experience skipping school i wanna experience teen love i wanna experience going on road trips with my friends i wanna experience being young and good at my sports i wanna experience playing the guitar with my friends while we drink alcohol by a fire i wanna see what a school fight looks like. i want a life i'll never have because of my stupid parents I'M GOING CRAZY