I just have the dumbest kink.

I'm not on birth control. I do have a super regular cycle though and check all the symptoms (cervix, temperature, mucus) every day, so I'm pretty certain about my fertile days

I bet you can see where this is going. I just love to fuck my boyfriend without a condom and I want him to come inside. Even on super safe days he usually insists on pulling out and it takes so much self control to not lock my legs around him so he has to come inside.

Consent is super important though and I won't do it without his, but damn the thought makes me so horny I can't think. On the rare occasion he comes inside, I'm in bliss.

Once it was totally accidental and it makes me absolutely crazy to this day that I made him lose control so much half a year ago. I know it's stupid, we don't want kids (if push comes to shove, l'd probably get an abortion)... It's such a stupid kink for someone who is childfree by choice and my mind completely stops functioning when I think about him finishing inside me.

Edit: okay okay I get it, I’m also an idiot for having a „kink“ that’s basically just fucking :D

Edit 2: I’m 29, he’s 32. I want to have my tubes tied as soon as possible but doctors in Germany are a pain in the ass about this, because I’m still so young and might decide I want children in the future (I won’t). Or worse: what if a future partner wants children and I have lost the option for him (that’s just downright disgusting)???

Edit 3: I don’t plan to go on birth control because a) it fucked up my hormones badly and b) the thrill is about two grown people who have successfully completed university and work high end jobs to be stupid and horny enough to kick safety out of the window. This would be gone with birth control…