Can OCD make you suicidal? Trigger warning for mentions of suicidal thoughts.

Can OCD make someone suicidal?

I got upset and cried while my mom was on the phone with someone. She wasn't happy with me (reasonably so). I later told her I didn't want to interupt her call. I've been such a fucking mess for the past several months, and it seems to have gotten way worse in the last two weeks.

I felt so bad when she asked me what had gotten into me to make me act so upset. I know I stress her out. She'd have less stress if I was just gone. My OCD is out of control. I've had mental health problems for so long that I don't think I'll ever recover. Due to this I've been having suicidal thoughts for the past few days.

If someone has considered setting a date for when they want to be gone by, is that active suicidal ideation?

I feel like a burden and I don't feel hopeful at all. Mental illness has destroyed who I used to be and I just don't have the strength to continue existing in this state anymore.