i finally did it.
from being scoffed at and mocked for suggesting bedside report, to the incredulous questioning why I was tasked with assuring compliance with bedside report, to being the newest nurse remaining from too many to even remember them all, less than 15 more than 5, to being accused of contributing to patient expiration after not working for the two days leading up to said expiration, to constantly crying and feeling unsupported, to being called a safety risk, to ask for help clarifying one step out of however many to be told: “i’ll just do it, whatever.” to being told “if i had a medical emergency and i knew you were working, id go to the next town over even if it meant i didn’t make it” BY A COWORKER!!! to having people whisper once i leave the nurse’s station and it immediately stopping when i get back, to being treated like an idiot when people ask me questions and i give them the right answer and then they look it up and say the exact same thing i did like it’s brand new information that i hadn’t just told them, to being given assignments of 5:1 to my co nurse 1:1 (not critical not mental holds, they just are sooooooo busy!!!!!) i accepted a new position. this will be the longest thirty days of my life. my mental health has never been so bad and i’ve been 5150’d before. 🙃
from being scoffed at and mocked for suggesting bedside report, to the incredulous questioning why I was tasked with assuring compliance with bedside report, to being the newest nurse remaining from too many to even remember them all, less than 15 more than 5, to being accused of contributing to patient expiration after not working for the two days leading up to said expiration, to constantly crying and feeling unsupported, to being called a safety risk, to ask for help clarifying one step out of however many to be told: “i’ll just do it, whatever.” to being told “if i had a medical emergency and i knew you were working, id go to the next town over even if it meant i didn’t make it” BY A COWORKER!!! to having people whisper once i leave the nurse’s station and it immediately stopping when i get back, to being treated like an idiot when people ask me questions and i give them the right answer and then they look it up and say the exact same thing i did like it’s brand new information that i hadn’t just told them, to being given assignments of 5:1 to my co nurse 1:1 (not critical not mental holds, they just are sooooooo busy!!!!!) i accepted a new position. this will be the longest thirty days of my life. my mental health has never been so bad and i’ve been 5150’d before. 🙃