The urges are strong but...

The shame and regret of going back will be a million times worse.

I was at one of the lowest points of my life in October; bitter, resentful, angry with the world and with myself. This NNN has helped me overcome the misery in great deal. However, the past is calling at my front door today, tempting me to return to that unsavory version of me that loathed himself everyday.

But no more... I don't want to go back, I don't ever want to go back. I wasted so much of my youth indulging in fantasies, missing what life had in store for me. I want to change, I want to be better, I want to be stronger.

There's this cute girl in class I've been having a crush on for months and I want to ask her out before the month ends. Next semester starts with the internships, so I won't be seeing her in a long time. At the very least, I just want to confess her my feelings so I can find a little bit of closure.