Is there an actual reason to live

I’ve been thinking about this for a while and I just can’t see a reason to live because I’m not sure if I want kids idk if I even wanna date and once I finish high school I don’t see myself going anywhere because I don’t want to finish school just to go to even more school to get a job and work for the other half of my life until I retire and just die so whenever I get a thought about killing myself I feel like it isn’t a bad idea especially because I know nobody and I’m constantly disassociating idk what else to say