How can I make next year better?

I thought I’d find my bearings during first year, but I still feel lost and insecure, especially as I approach second year. I know I have content gaps and have already forgotten so much of the little I learned. I kind of went about the year haphazardly and finished with barely passing marks, didn’t make significant contributions to my school or local community, and did not connect with any professors. There are no new activities or research I’ve engaged in. I have yet to find a faculty, near-peer, or peer mentor. I’ve made some friends, but none I feel especially close to. I’ve worked really hard to get to a great medical school as a first generation student, but feel like I have squandered my opportunities. I don’t know what specialties I’m interested in, I don’t know what my passions are anymore, and I’m concerned I’ll repeat my mistakes and waste my second year too. Has anyone felt like this before? What did you do to overcome and improve?

• confused rising M2