“kinks are genetic!”

small vent and will delete soon. just, gah.

is it just me who DESPISES it when people say “kinks are genetic”? i dont care to look more into it. i dont care if its scientific. i dont care about the research involved and i certainly dont give a flying fuck which genetics from which parent is more likely to give xyz. im not denying it, i just wish i didnt know that.

knowing a good chunk of my moms kinks, knowing i, myself like them.. its devastating. her having sex in front of me was most likely a kink thing too. she has shown me her kink gear, in which some i do like too. it just reminds me similar to how i look at my genitals and only see hers. i feel disgusted with my own genitals as a result, the kink thing really only adds onto it.

its devastating. i feel like i dont have a vessel of myself, just a mini-mom. knowing my mothers private needs and down to the core of her genitals knowing there was not one damn thing i could do to prevent knowing that really doesnt help.

id just like some other MDSA survivors to chip in, honestly. nobody gets it unless they do, this community makes me feel more seen. i hope youre all doing decent regardless.