How do I... do this?

How do you even start ummm... getting into that zone? There are so many... aids, to help focus that is over whelming. I tend to look around until I realize I'm just looking at wholesomeyuri type things because I got distracted.

I feel like I have this drive to, well, have that drive, but can't figure it out.

And if I just try and force it, hold my breath and hyperfocus, then it's like doing a chore and I can't feel anything until half a second of maybe something happened and then it just becomes unpleasant.

Any suggestions are hugely appreciated. 🫰