I hit my husband and need help

I have been married to my husband for just about a year now. We tend to argue about little things at least once every week. When this happens, my husband always gives me the silent treatment no matter who is at fault and I am the one to always initiate conversation and resolve things. I’ve told him again and again that I hate the silent treatment and when he shuts me out, but I guess that’s his way of coping and I just can’t handle it. When he does talk, he usually says something insulting about me/my family.

At times, I’ll take some time to myself (cry about it or just give him space) and then go up to him apologise and get him to talk to me. Things go back to normal once that’s done. I love him and just can’t stand the thought of him ignoring me. There have been two incidents in the past year where I have reacted way out of proportion. The first was when I shouted at him in public a few months back, which I vowed to never do again. I’m still working on myself to be better and do better.

Another incident was just yesterday when I got so frustrated and tried to talk to him, but he wouldn’t and I hit him. I know I am 100% in the wrong for doing that and I feel so guilt ridden right now. I promise never to do it again. My husband has started guilt tripping me by stating that I was the one that hurt him physically (which I did and it was a horrible mistake) but he doesn’t even acknowledge the fact that what he did hurt me as well. I tried apologising (which he said sounds insincere) and I promised never to do it again (my husband responded saying we’ll see about that). I need help to deal with this and rectify my mistake?

Tl;dr - I hit my husband after he kept giving me the silent treatment even after my asking him not to, now he’s guilt tripping me and I need to know how to correct my mistake

Edit: I did not post this on Reddit to gain sympathy or be told I was right, because I know I wasn’t. I just wanted an honest critical assessment of the situation and you guys have given me that. Thank you for calling me out on my toxic behaviour and for the few who offered me advice on how to handle my anger. I am not condoning my behaviour or justifying it in any way. It was very very wrong. All I’m trying to do is change so that I don’t end up hurting the one I love and losing him.