I am scared to run clown

So i was away from the game and i got back into the game right before kuku. For obvious reasons i was a bit shit at the game when i came back. Found a group to run kuku in the first week. Cleared G1 and the group gave up after 3hrs of trying g2 (People had busy schedules and couldnt run more during that week). Now i have not run kuku since.

I feel like now i am behind others and finding a group for someone like me is difficult as i have not even attempted g3.

This has made me lose motivation to play the game altogether and i am unsure as to what to do. I feel scared that i am not upto the mark now and finding a learning party seems pretty hard.

I have been lurking the forums/lost ark discord to find a group but no luck.

I am a igniter sorc with 5x3 and 1485 gs. So i dont feel the build is an issue.