LO Caught Me Being A Creep

Hi,

I’m very disgusted by it, but I have the creepy habit of compulsively checking on my LO. I notice my limerence turns into OCD and I constantly try to get my ‘fix’.

We work in a callcenter. You can see your co-worker’s schedule and online status. Since I don’t talk to LO, I compulsively check these things.

I look at her from afar (We’ve had eye contact 3 times today) I check her schedule and I check if she’s in a call or something else.

It’s frustrating because I hate that she thinks I’m a creep, and it should be easy not to do it. But I still do

Today I noticed she was walking behind my desk, and I tried really hard not to turn around and look. I was so focused on doing that, that I forgot my screen. On my screen, her name was displayed in big letters (I was checking on her) From the corner of my eye, I noticed her standing still next to me and taking a few seconds to look at my screen. To my horror, I realized what it was displaying. I felt so ashamed that I left office early.

Edit: Just to be clear, I don’t try to justify my own behavior. I know it is wrong and harmful.