Please help find my radiant cut!

For anyone who has purchased a radiant cut diamond recently, where have you found them? I've checked many of the sites listed here as recommendations!! Almost all of them have either bow ties or tilt windows! I have not been able to find a single 4 Carat radiant cut diamond that doesn't have either one or both of those. Maybe I'm being too picky? I'm not looking for the best diamond out there. Just one that isn't crushed ice look and minus the bow tie/tilt windows. I had a beautiful 5 carat radiant that had neither of those. However I felt that it looked too large on my hand at a 1.45 ratio. I appreciate any suggestions!! I have seen some absolutely gorgeous radiant cuts on this site.