Aj k onek, onek kandlam.

Kauke bolar nei kintu ami likhe ektu mon halka korte chai. Boundule moner onek onek utko chinta. Ektu nahoi amio likhi.

Note: keu bhab ben na ami taka chaichi, r chaichi na. Ami onek bhikkhe korechi, "fundraise" r ki. But eta fundraiser er jonno noi. Eta sudhui bolar jonno. Anar 2023 er july theke 2nd March 2025 obdi akta lomba juddho. Onek lomba. Aj k ami osohsi, amar kache 38 taka ache bank e. Sotti bolchi, man somman khuiye, cheyechi o onek, dhar, daan, bikkhe sob rokomer chawa. Kokhono peyechi, kokhono paini.

Amar kache aj k jokhon 38 taka pire ache, r ami jani j amar nijer j surgery tar dorkar tar jonno 80,000 taka lagbe, ami cheye cheye aj klanto. Ami decide korechi r chaibo na. R daktar dekhabona, amar dorkar nei operation er. Tumours jokhon bhogoban diechen, sei tumour niyei ami cholbo.

Amar maa bhogoban er doyay bhalo ache, maa er jedin heart attack ta hoi sedin theke onek, onek lorechi. Malda bole sohor tai heart attack er treatment hoi na. Kolkatai ante perechi lam, dhar er takai obossoi. Nalda te amar tumour er o surgery hobena, kintu ebar kolkata teo hobena.

Sastho sathi ami koranor chesta korechi, amar hoini, hobeona, block theke ghorano hoeche onekbar...se onek onek kotha janen...

Aj k ami decide korechi, amar byatha, amar j ei osojjo byatha haate, thak seta, amar kopale ja ache.

Maa er jonno akta fundraiser khola hoechilo. Tar 2 bochorer moddhe abar akta fundraiser chai naki? Bhaaaak. Nirghat scam. Prochur prochur scam charidike, koti koti takar scam ei deshe. Keu biswas korena... keu na... kagoj dekhale bole jali.

100 koti takar scam er rajje ami ki 80,000 takar akta scam korte parina bolun toh? Korlei kintu tumour 2to baad hoe jai MRI including... tao abar daycare e... raate thakte hobena...

Last August theke bujhte pari aste aste hater baire chole jachhe sob, tokhon ami ei account ta khuli, mental support er jonno, katha bolar jonno, "fundraise" korar jonno... chesta ami kom korini, ami akebare okejo nei, ayy kom ei ja... tate utko chikitsar balai ta metano amar pokkhe boroi bhari...

Ei aj k 3rd March, ami ei decide korlam, r bhikkhe korbona. Ami bhison cheyechilam sei December theke jobe theke prothom jante pari surgery ta dorkar j ami jodi taka ta arrange korte pari somehow, daan haat to... boro joruri jinis, ato kosto, ato byatha... jodi ba bhaggo kore thik hoe jai, hoini...

Tai aj k onek onek kendechi, die thik korechi ei aleya asha j keu amai doya korbe... r korbona... r chaibo na karo kache... r kauke dm kore bolbona, dada i am trying to fundraise...

Ami jani, osonkho manush chronically pain nie benche ache, amio thakbo, amar joto betha hok, ami sojjo korbo... amar jodi 5 bochor lage takata jomate, amar laguk.

Eta ak dik die bhison freeing... false hope but "ashai banche chasa" r dori dhore thakar chaite onek onek besi freeing... se kopale kosto thakle se ki r katano jai...

Maa er fundraiser tai kintu ami surur dike besh kichuta help peyechi. Tader prottek er kache ami bhison bhabe kritoggo.

Janen, December e jodi ei dhakka ta na petam j amar daan haat ta amake erokom kore betray korche, hoito aste aste jibon ta improve korto e bochor ei... bhebechilam o tai...

Kintu sob e kopal... but this is it.

R ami konodin handouts chaibona. Ami khub, khub klanto. Mon ta more jache aste aste... onek thekie rakhar chesta korechi but physical pain, mental pain... sob aksathe r parchina... tarpor abar bhikkhe chawa aker pir ak loker kache r khub practical j tara scam bhab bei...

R parchina... tai ei sesh... ajkei sesh. Ami bhison klanto. 3rd March e ami amar "fundraising journey" sesh. Aj er iti.

Ebar apni bolben, ta apnader k kano bolchi? Bolchi na hoito.

Hoito nijekei bolchi. Hoito ba bolchi "void" k. Mone holo akbar saradin e ja upolobdhi korechi aj k, thuri, aj k na kaal k... seta likhe feli, tai likhlum. Byas... ei ja...

Porar jonno dhonnobaad.