Fear of developing schizophrenia

Since I was little I have had anxiety but I have never had this, a couple of years ago I had intrusive thoughts of harming myself and others, I had never had these thoughts and that scared me a lot since I didn't know why I thought that, I thought I was crazy and I made a mistake, I went into a loop of reading symptoms on Google about mental illnesses like schizophrenia (I don't read anything anymore), because since then and since I know the symptoms of this illness I feel that my mind imitates or creates them, I'm waiting for what I see or listen in case I'm hallucinating, and I have thoughts like the ones I read on Google about delusions, although I know they are totally meaningless and not true, but having them makes me afraid that they are caused by something serious. The psychiatrist talks to me about impulsive phobias but come on... I don't know if I'm very suggestive or if I really have something very serious.