Literally what the fuck

Laying in my bed crying. This is actually the worst thing in the world and it’s starting to completely take over my life. I feel hollow all the time. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist in a week but I honestly feel like there’s no end it feels like I won’t make it. I lay in bed for hours exhausted but my brain won’t do it and I completely associate my bed with anxiety now, it’s like there’s no safe space. It sucks because it feels like this is literally starting to take so much from my personality and work ethic and reputation.