Losing my will to do this. “Overdue” and having fears. Would love some encouragement.

Today I’m 40 + 6. I’m losing my will to do this. I had a wonderful hypnobirthing hospital birth, with my first. Now as I wait for number 2. I feel like I’m losing my mind and I don’t care if I have to get induced. My reasoning for wanting to do a natural water birth seems out the window, far away, do I really care? Also having some fears about whether he will be ok if I wait longer. Would anyone tell me their stories of going “over”?