I feel numb…

Me (27f) and my bf (26m) have been together for just over 4 years.. we have talked about marriage a lot and he came clean that he probably would pop the question next year… well tonight while lying in bed I brought it up again and he said “probably” … I asked if there was a reason he might not and the conversation pretty much led him to saying “you should make yourself more desirable”.. I’ve grown in many ways in our relationship and I was starting to be confident in myself and thought I was where we needed to be.. his comment broke me.

I turned over and cried.. he heard me and put his arm around me and said “you’re enough” But it broke me. Like all the effort I put in wasn’t enough.. now it’s 2am, wide awake with a broken heart as he sleeps soundly beside me as I type this..

I guess I could just use some love right now ❤️‍🩹