Scissoring for trans men

So me and my gf were having piv intercourse and after multiple rounds of sex the pack and play came off along with the harness and we ended up in a “scissoring” position. She loved it but it kind of made my dysphoria go through the roof. Is it usual for trans men/ masc to try this position? I didn’t mind when she was on top but when we switched and I was on top, it felt kinda emasculating 😅. Am I tripping chat?