having a daughter makes me dysphoric

i'm planning to have a child in 2-3 years.

for as long as i remember i've wanted to become a dad. i recall always preferring the thought of having a baby boy instead of a girl.

i've wondered why for a long time. felt immense amounts of guilt over it too. then just recently it hit me: i would rather have a boy because the thought of having a daughter makes me feel insanely dysphoric. the memories of my own awful childhood all come back to me.

i want to trust in my ability to put my dysphoria aside and raise a child to my best ability regardless of their gender.

but it still scares me so much. what if i have a daughter and she ends up miserable all because of me?

please. any advice would be greatly appreciated.